Fuck my life.

HAIHH . TELL ME ! TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO ? i'm so fucking useless . dear god , whyy ? why am i like this ? what happened ? my feeling sucks . and i dont like this feeling . i dont wanna offline now . if i did offline i dont know what should i do . maybe writing my feelings at my books ? sighh . i dont wanna feel useless , i dont wanna see the one i love emo and i cant do anything . what if he is in pain now ? and i cant do anything . sighh . i dont like this you see . dont tell me you're alright when you actually dont . you will just makes me worried . i didnt receive your text message yet . haihhh . fuck my lifee. i hate myself . OFF ! better off to find my books and write out some craps  . EMOOOOOO </3
Life is full of difficulities , which it helps someone to grew more matured . and understand more about things that has been happened in a sudden , no one know's when its the right time for everything and when it will goes bad , some believe's in fate , and some do not . different people's , different's attidute , different thinking , its like , you had your's and i had mine . you go your way and i go my way . couples both male and female both have different kind of attidute . it should be they share everything they had been through together and not by keeping everything to ourself . cause it will only caused lots more problem . no one is perfect . no one could handled everything by themself . we're strong for once or twice . but we never are always strong . you loved someone cause they're special and who you are when you're with them . its not that you loved someone because they're beautiful . even you told me im pretty . but still i dont felt secure . that's true. and im never okay being alone . but i always kept myself accompanied when im alone . cause i dont like the feel being alone . i dont wanna felt left out . i did sometimes think . what am i to you ? would we get to be together forever ? i know its impossible cause im not good , im selfish . and i cant comfort you and everyone . maybe in future . im alone . walking alone in the dark without anyone . Fuck my life yeah . (':

EMO DAY

HEY BLOG . you're the only place where i can tell out everything i feels now . haihh . afternoon , when i woke up . he told me he was moody . and i asked why . he say his mother dont let him go for the society cause said he didnt attend tt . he said he changed to tuesday . but his mom still dont let him to . he dont wanna being left out by his society friends and activites . and on the other side . that means me . i dont even know how to comfort him . and i just said . Friends if he is good , you dont have to work hard . they will communicate wif you if they're good enough . they would talk to you like how he talked to his friends . and you told me i dont know how to comfort you . yes . i really dont know how . im getting worst in everything . i dont even know how to comfort people now . and i can be suddenly emo . i dont understand whyy . i felt much pain in me now . i feel like crying myself out . i dont want you to worried about me. so lets not talk about it . you said about karma and curse . sighhh . i really dont know how . im getting myself forward . thinking what to said to comfort you . i really hate being myself . cause in the very moment . that you actually needed someone to comfort you . and i cant do it . instead , you told me you just nid a diary for 5minutes and not comfort. sighhh . what the hell is happening right now god ? can you give me back the old me ? i dont wanna emo suddenly anymore. i dont wanna be the idiotic person that dont know how to comfort someone . im afraid i would be left out by you someday . im really afraid . Cry myself outt . i need my friends to be there for meee . broo janweng and sister elaine and issac. thankiew for being there for me when i needed someone . but i still not feeling good . pleaseee drag me away .and give me back the old me god . )':

SMACKS !!

Sometimes you just dont understand what people felt , 

But you did try to understand how they felt ,

Its not easy to understand someone you love that means alot to you ,

Would somehow shows how much they actually meant to you ,

And you cared for em so much .

" Saying I love you is easy ,

But to thank em from loving you is hard ,

There is so much words stuck in your heart ,

That you wish to said to that special someone ,

Its never easy to confess the feelings you felt ,

Instead you wish he know it by himself  " 

 

" In life , I learned to love someone ,

  In life , I learned to appreciate someone special ,

  In life , I learned to trust that special one ,

  In life , I learned you don't have to be loved just to love that only one ,

  In life , I learned that without you , Life is full of unwanted days ,

  In life , I learned to be there for you , even you dont need me "

 

 

 

 

WHEEEE ~~~

This few dayss . my moood we're greattt . thanks to youu . wheeeee ~ i go back to my old blog . and i found some old stuff i posted . hahahahas . would update it later what izzit . we're having exam soon ): haihh . SAY NO TO EXAM . >< Luckily we all next week ni start . still can prepare . hees , goood luck to himmm cause he's having on wednesday . Wanna offline soon cause wanna study cause i promised him . hees . After study thenn call . wheeee ! happy happy . yesterday chat wif him untill 2 something . today woke up late at 6.40 daddy scold me ):  . That's alll . will update sooner or later . :D